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What I Wish I Could “Unknow” About Health

September 2, 2016

You can't turn back time but if I could "unknow" anything about health, it would be this. The other day as I was finishing up a sweaty workout, I found myself laying on the sticky mat wondering how many calories I had burned.

This thought – the calorie thought– doesn’t happen all that frequently in my life anymore, but moments like these when calorie counts, numbers and metrics for weight do popup remind me that even though I’ve made strides to eliminate them, they still exist below the surface.

My brain unearths them, like a worm foraging below the ground. It swirls it around for a while before dropping it for a better, heartier thought. One that doesn’t see my body as an object to be measured.

But the reality is that even though I know better, the thoughts still exist. As much as I wish I could “unknow” the concept of calories, it’s almost impossible to remove this lesson from my mind. It’s one that will live with me forever and my only option, the better option, is to accept and let go.

I don’t have any regrets about my life or my experiences. Everything I’ve been through has made me who I am. And from these experiences has emerged someone who I hope can lead you by example. But there are still lessons, especially those surrounding health that I wish I hadn’t learned. Lessons that I wish I could erase from my memory.

I wish I could unknow what a calorie represented.

I wish I could unknow how many grams of fat we’re “supposed” to have per day.

I wish I could unknow the fastest way to burn calories.

I wish I could unknow which greens are “best” for you.

I wish I could unknow the carb count in bread.

I wish I could go back to the days when the decisions we made for our health were based solely on how things made us feel and not how they made us look.

But I can’t turn back time. Nor do I want to. All I can do is remember that these thoughts don’t have to control my actions. And they don’t have to control yours either.

That sweaty workout felt amazing. So did it really matter how many calories I burned? Of course not. What mattered most was that I didn’t allow the results of my workout to determine what came next. I didn’t indulge because I burned a ton of calories and I didn’t restrict because it didn’t. I just did what felt right as each next step presented itself. Even if the calorie thought crossed my mind.

My advice to you?

Take it day by day. Thought by thought. Listen. And then listen again. Sometimes our initial thoughts aren’t our best thoughts.

You can’t unknow it all, but you can choose what to listen to.

You can't turn back time but if I could "unknow" anything about health, it would be this.

*huge thanks to Bettina Bogar (my actual photography hero!) for the images.

What do you wish you could “unknow” about health?

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    Lauren
    September 11, 2016 at 9:57 pm

    Ahhh I bloody love this post! I have had thoughts like that where I wish I could un-know stuff. However I am totally with you, what we actually need to do is just decide which thoughts we are going to listen too. We don’t have to abide by any rules or anything that makes us feel crappy 🙂 How we FEEEEEL is what is important 🙂

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    Tisha
    September 7, 2016 at 11:53 am

    Such a great post! So much of this rings true. Even as a holistic nutritionist I’ll get these moments where I hesitate before adding coconut oil or grass fed butter to a meal. Or if I’m feeling unattractive that day, I briefly think about skipping breakfast and saving calories. Of course I ignore these fleeting thoughts, but they definitely still show up years later!

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      Davida @ The Healthy Maven
      September 9, 2016 at 10:30 am

      I know those feelings so well! I totally had that thought yesterday when I didn’t measure how much oil I was adding to the pan. That was followed by it “I don’t give AF” thoughts immediately afterwards but crazy that they still exist!

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    Emily
    September 5, 2016 at 12:21 am

    Wow… friend. There are so many of these things I wish I could unknow too, but the way that you encourage us to listen and to take it one day at a time is super encouraging especially in the battle for recovery in my life. <3 Thank you!

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      Davida @ The Healthy Maven
      September 6, 2016 at 1:00 pm

      Thank you, Emily! I’m so happy my journey was able to resonate with you. Know you are not alone!

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    Vivienne
    September 4, 2016 at 8:57 pm

    I couldn’t agree more. I wish I could unknow how many carbs, fiber, sodium, sugar, etc. that I should/should not be consuming daily and just be. Unconsciously knowing all these things in the back of my mind, has taken all the pleasure out of eating and just puts more stress on myself and that is really no way to live. Thank you for this post today.

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      Davida @ The Healthy Maven
      September 6, 2016 at 1:00 pm

      I completely understand where you’re coming from. What helps me is remembering that all these metrics were calculated based on an average and I like to think of myself as more than average haha 😉 But really, there is nothing valuable in those numbers unless you have a serious medical condition. Otherwise, eat what feels great and eat less of what doesn’t! And give it time, it’s still hard for me but it’s gotten much easier to drop this stuff with time!

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